Saturday, 27 November 2010

decorating, driving & life

Hi all

Well its been a while since I did my blog.

We are still decorating. Front room is nearly finished as is the hallway. The kitchen is coming on a treat. We have got a lovely range cooker & a dishwasher so things will be easier in there soon. Marv's doing a wonderful job.

I restarted my driving lessons with my old instructor Phil. Hes lovely and the lesson was fantastic. It was like being in the car with an old friend. Can't wait til next weeks lesson.

I had my MRI scan this week. I managed to stay calm this time unlike the first one I had. I sobbed my socks off that first scan. This time I just concentrated on my breathing. At least its done and now I have to wait for the results in 2 weeks time.

I've got mixed hopes for the results. Part of me wants them to find something has got worse to explain the reason for my symptoms but the other half of me wants it to come back the same as before with no further problems. 

I just want to get sorted out and start living my life to the max. I hate being restricted. Its affecting all parts of my life now. I'm going to have to get stair-rail on the wall to help me. 
The snow is lovely but it affects me badly. I have been in an awful lot of pain today to the point I was crying in the car. We were meant to be going out tonite but I can't manage to go anywhere. It does bring me down but hey it could be worse... at least I can walk.

Well christmas is creeping up on us and I still haven't finished my pressie shopping. Need to get it all done soon coz its driving me nuts. The decs will be up next weekend then maybe I will feel more christmassy. 

I do wonder about some people whom think its ok to let people down whenever they feel like it. Can they really be so selfish??? its shocking

Off to watch X-factor.... omg Wagner pmsl
why would you vote for him??? its like someones sleazy uncle at a wedding pmsl 

well I gonna go and laugh at him some more lol

Take care everyone and feel free to comment or just say hello 

Thursday, 11 November 2010

anxious & feeling down

I'm feeling very anxious and down at the moment. 

I knew that I had been referred to the back specialist urgently but wasn't expecting a phone call calling me in to see him the next day. 

I now have to have a MRI scan before next weds when I see the specialist again. Yes its fab that they are doing something but its very worrying. I will be glad when its all over. There are obviously more problems going on than they thought. I just hope they sort things out soon. I'm sssoooo fed up of being in pain.

On another subject, I hope everyone did their 2 mins silence today. Alot of people died for our country and are still dying. Regardless of your opinion on the whole war subject 2 mins of your time once a year is not too much to ask for. Everyone did it at my work place but I know there were a few people who didn't.

Unfortunately there are still some people trying to cause trouble. Someone is meant to be trying to fight my battles. I have never needed a man to stick for me before and I'm not about to start now. Like I don't have enough going on right now.....

Well the decorating is coming on a treat, Marvs doing a wonderful job. Its going to be lovely. The living room and hallway is being done at the moment. So we are still living upstairs at the moment. Good job we have tvs up here lol. Its not going to be the end of the decorating tho as the kids rooms are going to be done in the new year. 

Not sure what else to put so gonna say good-night now 

Sunday, 7 November 2010

Bonfire nite

Bonfire Nite

Wow we had a great bonfire nite. We went to a display with the whole family. The fireworks were wonderful and then we let chinese lanterns off. The kids loved them.

As normal I have the pleasure and pain problem... pleasure watching fireworks with the family.... pain last nite and today.... its always the same. I managed without any crutches or the wheelchair which I was so chuffed about but prob should've used them. I want to beable to enjoy my life without pain but I know thats not going to happen. I guess its a case of getting a balance. 

Things aren't great for me mentally at the minute. I am feeling very down & fat. I finally told Marv how I felt yesterday. I know I will get there in the end but its a hard fight. I just wish I could be "normal" whatever that is ha ha ha... Well I have to get on with things regardless. I'm so lucky to have Marv and my girls because they are what keeps me fighting on.

I've done the ironing today whilst Marvs been decorating. I finally finished it all and couldn't move afterwards. Poor Marvs still got loads to do before its done.

Still living upstairs whilst the decorating is going on. Its gonna look wonderful when its done. We have even started thinking about the kitchen next lol. I have been chilling watching tv for a while. Got super nanny on now and it makes my kids look angels lol. I can't believe how these kids on tv behave... omg I'd wanna kill em lol

Its not long til christmas and I have soooo much shopping to do... I have managed to start but am way behind. I would have liked to be nearly done by now but heyho it will get done on time as always lol.

Well thats it for now I guess. take Care  xx

Friday, 5 November 2010

decorating and bits & bobs

We are living upstairs at the minute. Its not as good as it sounds trust me lol.
We are decorating well Marvs doing most of it altho I did spend wednesday glossing the hallway. I really enjoyed it but the usual thing happened and I was in so much pain that I couldn't move by the evening.Its difficult not being able to help. I want to enjoy painting etc but I can't because the outcome is too painful.I have to admit I am excited about how its going to look as we have got a new fire to put in as well. Its lovely and its remote controlled yyyaaayyyy lol.

With the pain in mind I was a good girl when I went asda with my best mate, Claire and her son Bailey. I used one of those electric scooters. I thought I did fab seeing as I only crashed 4 times ha ha ha ha. I nearly took a corner display out too lol. When I first started it up I couldn't steer it to save my life. Claire was giving me directions in between laughing her head off at me lol.

The only down side was once I got on the scooter I seemed to become invisiable. People walked in front of me, into me or just stopped in front of me. I was getting quite pissed off. Next time I'm gonna crash into them, then they will bloody move lol.

I have treated myself to a new cook book. Its the 30 minute meals by Jamie Oliver. Nice and quick dinners are always a good thing to me lol. There are quite a few recipes I want to try once I get the kitchen back lol.

I didn't get on very well with slimming world so struggling to lose weight now. I am tempted to go back weight watchers but I don't stay to meetings so begrudge paying to be weighed. It will be so much easier when I can do some exercise on a regular basis. I hate being this big. Its no good for me mentally or physically but I guess its something I need to get my head round and pretty quick too else I'll be even bigger. 

I heard from Occy health today. I have to ring them on monday to speak to the relevant person but hopefully I will get my full assessment and get some more help. I could do with a few more bits to help make my life easier around the house. Mind you it will be good to hear about my referral. It was meant to be urgent but I won't hold my breath lol. My body just seems to be getting worse and I can't do anything about it. As long as I don't lose my marbles.... ooooppppssss abit late for that hee hee. 

I guess thats it for now but hopefully next time the decorating will be done so might have some piccies 
Thanks for reading. Have a lovely weekend and take care xxx