I've got broad shoulders for a reason and its a good job too.
I'm starting to get fed up of peoples digs over my problems. I don't choose to have a very bad back. I would def give up my pain tomorrow if I could. Its not something I enjoy but I am learning to accept it and live with it.
I feel everytime I get on my feet there are people who want to kick me back down. Altho that hasn't happened this time because I don't care what this person thinks or says but it does piss me off. Maybe if I stayed in my wheelchair then people would believe me but because I fight to be independant and am lucky enough not to need the wheelchair all the time I'm subjected to this kind of crap.
As many of you will know I have been experiencing back pain for ten years and its been worse over the past 2-3 yrs. During that ten years I went college, worked at nite, then went onto uni to do 2 yrs nurse training before having to quit due to my health. I just wish people would keep their nasty comments to theirselves.
Over the past 4 days I have been really suffering and don't need the comments when I'm feeling so low. I have had to double medication to beable to walk and also haven't been sleeping well due to the pain. Last nite I had to have diazapam to sleep but hey it works so I don't mind.
I shouldn't have to explain everything to everyone. Some people will always have nothing but nasty stuff to say but then in the next breath they are saying how poorly they feel......
I am lucky to have supportive friends whom I value very much. My girls and Marv are fantastic and help me when I need it & are always supportive. So I am a very lucky lady. This is what keeps me going everyday. I am on alot of medication which makes it possible for me to move and live my life altho not without pain each day but the fact I can do things makes me very grateful. I think I have a wonderful life and I love my family & friends. What more could I ask for???
So to those people who say nasty, thoughtless things about people who have health problems be it mental or physical, then think before opening your mouths because I'm damn sure you wouldn't like it if it was the other way round.
Rant over :o)
well its my day off and I am going to rest like a good girl for a change lol. I'm off out tomoz with my best friend so want to be ok for that. Back at work friday then going to a party sat nite. I can't wait.
On the weight loss front it was 1/2 lb this week so not over joyed. Its focus focus focus for the next week as I only have 1/2 lb to go to reach my first half stone mark. I really want to do this because its not just for my back but for me to make me more confident in myself and also so I can start looking in the mirror and liking what I see for a change.
Its half term and the kids are being good so far. I got them some cooking stuff and a craft book which they have been using. They are great kids and don't demand stuff all the time. Of course they push things and can be little shits at times but I love them more than anything.
I can't believe Yaz leaves school next year :-O shes already decided she wants to go to college. Charlie has to pick her options and Keanna will be in secondary school next year.... they are all growing up so quickly aaarrrggghhhh but they will always be my babies lol.
I'm loving the look of the mini cupcake maker mmmmmm...Lazy yes I know but how much fun will that be lol. Daytime tv lol
Please comment if you want too. I read them all and like that I get feedback. I know there are alot of people suffering in different ways whether its physical or mental and do not say anything. I just want people to understand how it affects peoples lives. I'm very lucky to beable to get around and work. I have alot of support but not everyone is as lucky as me. If anything I put in my blogs can help even in a little way then its all worth it. Writing my blog helps me in many ways and knowing you read it encourages me to carry on. Sorry if any of it bores you but they are not always so serious so bare with me
Many thanks and take care everyone xxxxxx